A few years back, I was going through a very questionable time in my life. I was wondering and asking God what was I supposed to be doing in and with my life... Did I miss what He put me on this earth to accomplish??? Was I living out my purpose??? Was I supposed to be working at Windi's Bridal Boutique??? ( Nope, I am not closing the shop or leaving... So I'll go ahead and stop a rumor before it starts. I am still going to be there in the morning with bells on!!)
The year was 2010. I was at a point in my life where I was a very broken person. I was discouraged with every changes happening all around me. I had all these questions and there were no answers in sight. I was just before breaking off my engagement to the man I was going to marry. I was at an all time low area I had not been in many years. I questioned God a lot about everything (PS.. God wants us to go to Him when we have questions and seek Him for direction.. That's called trusting Him..)
We were in revival at the church I attended. I had been in the mully grubs all day. It seemed as if my prayers had only been hitting the clouds and were bouncing right back at me unanswered. I needed to know if I was "doing it right" or was I way out "in a league of my own" and missing God completely. I was tired of questioning my life, my occupation, and my purpose. I was being fed by "someone" I just needed to close up shop. Cash in my chips. Walk away and never look back. He did not understand this is what I love to do.
As I was sitting in the church service on the third row, right hand side by the wall, the evangelist was used by God and gave me an on time word. It was the confirmation I needed to hear. Evangelist Marvin Booth stopped in the middle of his sermon, looked at me and pointed his finger at me and said...
"Sister Windi I just looked at you and the Lord told me to tell you 'you don't just have an occupation, you have a ministry.' Hallelujah. It's more than a career, it's a calling. Hallelujah. And that made sense to you when I said that. You don't forget that statement. It's not just a career, it's a call. NOT JUST CAREER, BUT A CALL."
My mind had drifted back to Stephen in the Bible. He had a market place ministry. Some people will try to say the only place a ministry can happen is in the pulpit. They are wrong. Anytime you have a chance to shine the love of Jesus, where ever you are, that is your pulpit.
Then a couple of weeks ago, I began questioning myself and God again. Had I missed it after all this time?
Last week, on Wednesday I had a customer who came back to purchase her prom dress she had picked out on Saturday. See Saturday at the shop during prom season means wide open. You don't have a chance for lots of one-on-one time. Wednesday was perfect for that!!! Her mom went to the back of the shop to talk to my mom. She stayed at the counter and we talked about life. She brought up a family member who was going thru the same type of unhealthy relationship I had gotten out of. The family member was the very same age I was when I started dating the guy many years . My customer could not understand why the family member was blind and allowing all this to go on. I got to share my side of the story of what I went through and explain how the person is blinded and really doesn't see it. How her family member thinks she can't find anyone else if she were to break the relationship off. It's a mind game.
Then last Friday I had another friend come by the shop. She and I began to share about what God has done in our lives since the last time we had seen each other. Last time I spoke to her, we were both engaged and planning weddings!! Both of us thought the other one had already gotten married. We sat there an hour talking about our situations and how God had allowed things to happen so we would see what we were putting ourselves through.
All of this happened this week to remind me I am right in the dead center of God's will in my life for such a time as this.
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