If you know me well enough by now, you know I believe God gives us signs as reminders about different things happening in our lives we need a little encouragement & assurance He is still there watching out for us. Listening to us when we pray. There with us when are sharing our broken heart as we are wiping away the tears. When the plans we want to work out aren't what His plans are and it crushes us.
Over the weekend I had some of those big plans get yanked right out from under me. I had let that big wall down that has been up for so long unknowingly. What I had thought was coming to fruition over the last few months came to an abrupt ending. The possibility of a dream coming to pass ended. The last 24 hours has been a reminder of why I keep the wall up and take everyone at face value only. Especially relationships and dating.
I have prayed and had a lot of conversations with God about this situation so many times. God, why this. God, why that. God, what is wrong with me. The whole time it is nothing to do with me and everything to do with the other person. The fact that he isn't who God has for me. There was a post I happened to see and it home on so many levels for me. It was exactly where I was in life with this relationship.
I haven't bought groceries except for frozen dinners and bread since Mom had her heart attack and open heart surgery. I got home today and then went to Dollar General in Broxton. I had put it off most of the afternoon. When I got in the truck I was having those conversations with God again. Remembering the post I had seen. Asking God "if not now, then when? If not him, then who?" As I got a couple of miles from the house, on a road I don't normally drive down, I saw the this amazing rainbow trying to form. Definitely God's way of telling and showing me "didn't I make a promise to you?! I haven't forgotten. It is all in My timing."
As soon as I saw the rainbow today, I immediately remembered a post from September 2018. I was going thru another situation exactly like this one. Matter of fact, it was the same guy. I remember where I was when I got the text. Everything about the text. And how my heart was broken then. As I left the place I was delivering balloons to, I looked up and this was looking directly at me. Another rainbow. So I had to go back and screenshot it to add to this post for today.
We all face a brokenheart, dreams ending, and disappointments. Those are sometimes God's way of not allowing us to settle for something He knows is not meant for us. Even though we think it is the best thing for us. When He has something better. Not saying it can't be the person you ended a relationship with. Sometimes it is just the wrong timing and God needs to heal broken places in their life. And let's face it, in our own life too. If it is not the right timing then it would be a disaster waiting to happen five years down the road. Sometimes it is not the person you are meant to be with and God just won't allow it to happen because He wants His best for you.
There are dreams that don't come to fruition. This could be work, school, or another area of life. This happens because you can't see the bigger picture. The stress and pressure that will leave you exhausted and no time or energy for anything else important in your life.
God has something so much better planned for you! God won't forget those promises He made to you. All in His timing ❤
Monday, October 19, 2020
August 10, 2020
Sunday, October 11, 2020
My Midnight Hour Angel
Everyone knows I am a very detailed person when it comes to telling a story. Depending on who you are that is a good or a bad thing! I listened to Pastor Holly Furtick use that illustration in her sermon the other day. Sometimes the gift of gab is good! That is something I also do in my prayer life. I have told a few people a specific prayer and the details surrounding it. I had one guy friend laugh and say "did you really have to go to that level with the prayer. I mean most people would have just said yada, yada and been done with it. Heck you went way beyond that level." Yes I do go to that level because I want to tell God exactly what I want as long as it lines up with His will and purpose in my life.
Most know ten years ago, I called off my engagement and wedding because the relationship was toxic for both of us. After we went our separate ways, I sat down and wrote God a list of all the things I wanted in my future husband. You know God, I know the perfect recipe that would make my husband the best man for me! Most importantly he has to have a love for God, love me with his whole heart, but the rest were a compromise. I mean as much as I want a good ole country boy in Levi's, God might send me a city slicker that.... Nah, God that might not be a compromise! LOL.
Let me insert...
NOPE this is NOT an engagement announcement post...
NOPE this is NOT a wedding announcement post...
Still very single...
At the end of this prayer or list, I went into full Pastor Jesse Duplantis Ministries mode cause God knows I have fun in my prayer life too. I talk to Him like I do my closest friends... "You know God, if you need any help and need a suggestion _______________ would make a great catch." The "great catch" just happens to be one of my favorite country music singers. Yes, 10 years later I have this list still and I will most likely never cross paths with that "great catch". Mainly because I know God has someone perfect just for me at just the right time.
Why is this all important and why am I rambling?! Without this back story the rest of this is not going to have any significance.
Pretty much the whole year of 2020, I have prayed a lot more for my future husband. His walk with God. His health. His safety. His heart. His job. His emotional health. His protection. This is where the "great catch" comes in. I usually have WBYZ blaring in the background to kill the silence at the shop, the house, the truck. When all is quiet at the shop, I will randomly say a prayer for my future Mister. At home getting ready for work wondering "where he is and what is he doing". All of a sudden while I am praying, said "great catch" comes on the radio. This has happened so many times I have started documenting it when it happens down to the date and time. Yeah I am that level of detailing and documenting what some would say as "crazy". But so many times as it happens you have to keep a record. Just like all these heart shaped clouds and vehicle parts I have found lately.
One night when a head light on my truck went out a few months ago, I had stopped on the dirt road as I was leaving Mom's house. As I was getting out to see about it I was like in full disgusted mode "God, this is why I need MY husband already. I need a man to help me do things like this I know nothing about. There are some things I do need a man for so I don't have to do it myself. Please hurry up and send him already... Geezeeeee." Get back in my truck, put truck in gear and wouldn't you know it "great catch" comes on the radio.
To me, this is God sending me those special little reminders that He has not forgotten me, my prayers are not in vain, and to let me know He has this whole bigger picture in His hands.
Annnnnnddddddddd now back to what happened yesterday... I had a busy week with tuxedo rentals and balloons for three events. So I was overloaded. I worked all night Friday night and had balloon centerpieces all over my shop and had to move to almost the front door so I could plug the hot glue gun in to work on some things. As soon as I locked the door at 6:00 p.m. Friday, I put the ear phones in and pulled up my Elevation podcast and listed to Pastor Steven and Holly Furtick all night. At 12 to 12:15ish, the podcast had ended and I was upfront and didn't want to go to the back of the shop and play the next one until I was back there working again to save time. As I was walking around the front, there were soooooo many "neon" balloons around on those bases I did. It was like a sea of neon balloons. So many that I started singing "My favorite color is Neon, the light they always leave on, The weekend on the rocks, An old school jukebox with a little Johnny Lee on, It's the buzz I love to be on, You put a double on your troubles on line, Then end of the tunnel is always neon".
I was working away with earphones still in because I didn't think about taking them out. Still singing "Neoooon". I mean it was barely less than a minute after I sat down that I heard a noise but didn't think about it, then I heard it again. I looked up to see a man standing at the front door of my shop, smiling from ear to ear. He was dress nicely and wearing a blue shirt. I took my ear phones out so I could hear him. He got to where the doors meet so I could hear him better and he said "God said He is about to bless you." As soon as he said it I got chill bumps. I smiled and told him thank you and "God bless you". He waved and then he was gone headed on his way walking south. I have never seen this guy before and probably won't until I get to Heaven.
Sometimes I think God has to go a lot bigger than what we think to show Himself and His promises. When we feel alone. When we feel like we are fighting the whole world. He sends an angel by literally at the midnight hour to prove to you you aren't alone. Just like the song we sang a few years by Fred Hammond "We're blessed in the city, Blessed in the field... Late in the midnight hour, It's gonna work in your favor, God's gonna turn it around, and around, and around". He is still there listening to you. He has not abandoned you. He is still working in your favor. Even though you feel like you are out battling everything yourself. He is still there!
The few people I have shared this with the last two days have had the same reaction and the same chills as it has been shared with them. One pastor's wife I shared it with yesterday said "You know that man wasn't just a man, he was an angel". I already knew that the moment I laid eyes on him at the door but I wanted someone else to confirm it! I debated on sharing this because of some people saying I share too much. Ohhh, just wait until after I marry my Prince Charming. The story I have been writing the last ten years will finally be able to be shared!
There are some things I have got in the works and when the time is right I will share with you all! I have never felt "sane" when I have shared my "great catch" stories. Reality is, I know God has to use someone or something to get our attention. And 10 years ago I could have said someone else on that "my future husband list" and God would have used that person instead.
And by now you have probably realized the "great catch" would be the one and only Chris Young. Hey, you can't blame a girl can ya?! So how bout a little "Neon" for the closing...
#ChrisYoung #ElevationChurch #StevenFurtick #HollyFurtick #Angel
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